I hardly say "NO" to you, but why you keep turning me down?
It's like falling into a deep valley.
Your "NOs" hurt me badly.
It's excruciating.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
ME
I think I have developed a weird, abnormal, unhealthy penchant for self-torturing.
I am kinda in a deep depression, I can't control my mood!!
And the worst part is I don't know what I'm unsatisfied of. I might know. Yea, I might.
But, it's not worthwhile scrambling my mind with this.
My mood is even worse than the weather. I am being extremely extremely exhausted.
Tired of this and that.
I feel like throwing tantrums, but I'm afraid that noone will buy that.
I am too nice to complain about all the imperfect in life.
I have all to cling on, that's enough I suppose.
*It's me being random, I don't know WTH is about, maybe just pms. Girls right? =="*
I am kinda in a deep depression, I can't control my mood!!
And the worst part is I don't know what I'm unsatisfied of. I might know. Yea, I might.
But, it's not worthwhile scrambling my mind with this.
My mood is even worse than the weather. I am being extremely extremely exhausted.
Tired of this and that.
I feel like throwing tantrums, but I'm afraid that noone will buy that.
I am too nice to complain about all the imperfect in life.
I have all to cling on, that's enough I suppose.
*It's me being random, I don't know WTH is about, maybe just pms. Girls right? =="*
There's a someday
There's always a SOMEDAY......
A someday that I wish I can have a lust bite of Secret Recipe's cheese cake, indulging myself in the sweetness of it, tempting every each of my tastebuds.
A someday that I wish I were having high tea with my best friends in Starbucks, sipping hot espresso, gossiping about the happenings in life.
A someday that I wish to have movies..lots of movies, whatever movies, romance, horror, animation, action, comedy...
A someday that I wish to lay restlessly on the couch and read my favourite novel of the time, no matter how many times I have read it.
A someday that I wish to go for a jog, or perharps sweat in the gym,
day that I just feel like burning the fats in my body.
A someday that I don't want to get up from my cozy bed while the alarm rangs incessantly,
I will just play deaf until my housemates sceam like hell.
A someday that I don't feel like talking much, too lazy to even give a smile, a glommy day for me.
Well, just don't mess with me on that day.
A someday that I wish I were back home with a table of scrumptious mom-cooked food awaiting.
I miss them dearly.
A someday that I wish I can hang out with my old friends.
They have always been there for me, ups and downs.
A someday that I wish you can hug me so tightly that as if I am a precious that you can't afford to lost.
I wish to hug you as if we will melt together.
SOMEDAYS just won't happen sometimes even if you wish earnestly. I guess they will come by surprise.
So, don't get frustrated over life, wait for your SOMEDAY, it will come sooner or later.
Have faith.
A someday that I wish I can have a lust bite of Secret Recipe's cheese cake, indulging myself in the sweetness of it, tempting every each of my tastebuds.
A someday that I wish I were having high tea with my best friends in Starbucks, sipping hot espresso, gossiping about the happenings in life.
A someday that I wish to have movies..lots of movies, whatever movies, romance, horror, animation, action, comedy...
A someday that I wish to lay restlessly on the couch and read my favourite novel of the time, no matter how many times I have read it.
A someday that I wish to go for a jog, or perharps sweat in the gym,
day that I just feel like burning the fats in my body.
A someday that I don't want to get up from my cozy bed while the alarm rangs incessantly,
I will just play deaf until my housemates sceam like hell.
A someday that I don't feel like talking much, too lazy to even give a smile, a glommy day for me.
Well, just don't mess with me on that day.
A someday that I wish I were back home with a table of scrumptious mom-cooked food awaiting.
I miss them dearly.
A someday that I wish I can hang out with my old friends.
They have always been there for me, ups and downs.
A someday that I wish you can hug me so tightly that as if I am a precious that you can't afford to lost.
I wish to hug you as if we will melt together.
SOMEDAYS just won't happen sometimes even if you wish earnestly. I guess they will come by surprise.
So, don't get frustrated over life, wait for your SOMEDAY, it will come sooner or later.
Have faith.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
170710 0101
恐惧感突袭而来，害怕失去那个曾经，这个现在。
现实就是残酷， 残忍得一切美好都像是噩梦的前奏。
它让你相信，让你赴汤蹈火。
我还以为我有足够的勇气拥抱和放手。
以为只要我放弃，牺牲了，迎接我的就是美好结局。
我们都是公主，活在自己的童话世界。
我太自以为是了。
对不起，谢谢。
现实就是残酷， 残忍得一切美好都像是噩梦的前奏。
它让你相信，让你赴汤蹈火。
我还以为我有足够的勇气拥抱和放手。
以为只要我放弃，牺牲了，迎接我的就是美好结局。
我们都是公主，活在自己的童话世界。
我太自以为是了。
对不起，谢谢。
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
DHARMA
It's like a vicious cycle. I tried to stop it, believe me, I tried my best.
My priority never change, it's been the same since a long time ago.
Well, is too sad that I seem to be the only one that know this, the only one that cheer for this.
Maybe I'm too greedy, hoping for more while I already have the best one.
It's just me, it's never been anything else.
Why can't I be a bad girl sometime?
When I am bad, don't I deserve a smile? Saying that you still here.
I can run after you, but I am not an athlete, I can't catch up.
I bother, for god sake, I BOTHER!!
I am done being accused, though I will forgive everytime.
I care, I do.
My priority never change, it's been the same since a long time ago.
Well, is too sad that I seem to be the only one that know this, the only one that cheer for this.
Maybe I'm too greedy, hoping for more while I already have the best one.
It's just me, it's never been anything else.
Why can't I be a bad girl sometime?
When I am bad, don't I deserve a smile? Saying that you still here.
I can run after you, but I am not an athlete, I can't catch up.
I bother, for god sake, I BOTHER!!
I am done being accused, though I will forgive everytime.
I care, I do.
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