When In Pain @ 疼痛时

When I'm in pain, you no need to do much.
Just sit beside me, hold me, even without a word, it will make a world difference for me.
No matter how painful I am, how I wrenched my face, I will still smile because you are here for me, just beside, where I can see, where I can reach.
The PAIN won't be painful anymore, I will appreciate that, cherish dearly.

不要再依恋

他，神秘的，飘浮的，不相信我所信仰的。讽刺的是我的恋恋不舍。
最近，知道现实的残酷，等待的煎熬。等待是痛苦多于甜蜜的。等不到自己想要的，就只有躲到角落舔伤口，只有欺骗自己，他不值得我等待。
但，一再地让自己坠落，放纵，相信这是我与他最后的机会。落空......落空，是最后的答案。
我要的很简单，区区一个答案，但你给不到。
所以，我试着不在乎。不在乎就是王道！原来有时候不太执着，就能坦荡荡。
我从不是个坚持的人。典型的水瓶座，喜新厌旧的个性。
假如你没任何表示，为什么我就要讨好？
我，是好胜的；你，是不解风情的。 所以，我们不交叉。
我的要求很简单，怎知，这也很奢侈。

18 的结束，19的开始。

没来到这个新地方前，有太多的憧憬，太高的期望。承诺自己这将是个新的里程碑，崭新的未来。然而，人生不是事事顺利的。
已经越来越不了解自己，这是我要的？活在众人的期许中？
父母的担心，但强壮镇定，我都懂。
N年前，那聪明的女孩不在了！她少了她应有的那份骄傲。我曾说不哭，认为压力很容易解决。但，我错了。
还找得回吗？不再是主角，还习惯吗？
习惯当观众吗？ 你已经是鼓掌的人，不再站在台上。
好想呐喊，我不再果断，不再相信。 我需要多少的深呼吸，多少的自我催眠才能支撑，再次微笑。
重新出发，需要的是勇气。

trying to live in another way

I have never been a persistent type of person,and I always know that. I literally give up on everything that I could not reach, my studies, a chance for a new relationship...Every single thing that is just in front of me, I don't even care to reach out for it. Well, that's me. People always say that you will get what you want if you earn hard for it. Crap I said. Sometimes,things just won't go your way. Endure with it, that's what I did, and look now, I have become a don't-care-much person. I smile, I laugh, but deep inside, it's a well of sorrow.
I believe everyone is more or less good in faking because being your true self won't work in this world. Hypocrites we are. Fake a smile and everything will be better. However, I still believe everything will turn out just fine. I'm a strong believer, fight through all this depression and survive!! Being myself is the way.